I reflect upon when time in my world began to freeze. It gave me a moment to dive deep into a sea of conviction. Surpassing many points to meet myself in a place where honesty truly welcomed a relationship with change.
“The calm before the storm” is the analogy that would work best in the real world but either way – both could no longer be ignored; the calm nor the storm.
When the rain fell it masked a river of my tears. I accepted that in this frozen hour it was time to confront the collection of my thoughts and the entanglements of the infinite emotions within.
Then right before the thunder roared, I remembered that acceptance simply meant I was progressing through the journey of grief.
They say all things get worse before they get better.
The gust of heavy winds scattered debris of fears. While hailstones demolished the remains of what was already in need of repair. By the time this part of the storm passed, I was there alone in the ruins of what made me comfortable and all that made me who I once was.
As it felt exposing to have all of me laid out in the open, the war-torn picture I was observing had many piles of insecurities, doubts, jealousy, secrets and shame.
I saw these piles dissolving beneath the rainfall. As I stood under the light shower, I was finally free from the lifeless weight of burdens that I could not revive.
There was no rainbow, nor pot of gold at the end of this storm. Instead, when the skies turned blue, I realised that courage is a privilege I get to choose for myself.
A passage where I chose to face my fears over remaining fearful. Where I choose to transform my failures into knowledge. Where the wallowing of self-pity crumbles under my devoted belief that I am worthy.
So when the sun began to shine again the birth of a new beginning was before me. Where I was moving with time to experience peaceful chaos of love and life in its entirety, on the other side of the storm.
– Written by Tiare Robertson
“Everything on your plate at this point in time is just another something in a seas of somethings.
Your boat hasn’t and won’t sink so easily. There may be some storms, and you’ll probably end up seasick from time to time, but your journey across that ocean we call life will continue.”